What has become clearer and clearer to me, especially in the recent months, is that my need for outward order was really a way to tame all the thoughts in my head.
All the ideas. All the doubts. All the questions.
And while it does help from a sensory standpoint to have outward order to support the inward calm, the way to have the inward calm, it to go, well inward.
And be with it.
It can be really uncomfortable.
Let me back up for a moment.
When I first started A Life All In, I was supporting individuals create order, I helped people create systems that worked for them. I helped create attractive spaces individual to the needs and activities taking place in the space.
And as I kept going I realized there was something different about how I organized. There was something different about what I was there to do eith a client.
I was not interested in making a space look pretty. I was not interested in making a space look magazine perfect. There are people who do that, and bless them, but it is not my jam.
My purpose at that time was to help people explore and release the story that their stuff represented to them.
I was there with permission to release the “shoulds” of the half completed projects. The worry of “someday I may need this” and not trusting themselves that they will be able to access what they need when they need it.
I was there to help create a safe space to move into the present and start seeing a future. Supporting a release. Supporting a stirring of new energy and a calm peace in a space that supported them.
It is an inward and an outward process.
And as I was doing the work, there was a new stirring to explore my own release. A stirring to release mental and emotional clutter that was holding me back.
And it came in the form of a new pair of running shoes.
But I had never run before.
The evolution and expansion continues next week.
